28.1.09
Gyrating Hips wanna take a pic.
Yeah.She likes to shake her hips.thus the nick.
As u can see,FunnyFeet is having the time of his life.
Cam-whoring.haha.
I have been surviving.
slowly but surely.
Need i remind u, EXAMS ARE COMING!!
haha.
i was mugging.
seriously.
my communication connections are down.
HP-no prepaid,no money yet to top up.
Msn- cock up.
Land Line- always bz( courtesy of sis)
slowly but surely.
Need i remind u, EXAMS ARE COMING!!
haha.
i was mugging.
seriously.
my communication connections are down.
HP-no prepaid,no money yet to top up.
Msn- cock up.
Land Line- always bz( courtesy of sis)
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ClazZiQuai CT, 8:45:00 PM
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26.1.09
A post before i go to bed.
I have to revise 4 subs in a week.
i am not used to doing revision last min.
yes i noe, but to me its like last min revision.
hahah..
I miss Kal.
I do miss him.
Goin to be at abi's hse till tuesday.
I am comin back in the mornings though.
Have housewrk to finish.
Meeting Kal tml mrning.
for breakfast.
i will be back soon.
coz i need to study.
I need to cool off abit.
I have to revise 4 subs in a week.
i am not used to doing revision last min.
yes i noe, but to me its like last min revision.
hahah..
I miss Kal.
I do miss him.
Goin to be at abi's hse till tuesday.
I am comin back in the mornings though.
Have housewrk to finish.
Meeting Kal tml mrning.
for breakfast.
i will be back soon.
coz i need to study.
I need to cool off abit.
Fyeeqa,Aishah,Atika.
I am not comin tml for the grp study.
I need to cool off.to regain focus.
Dun worry, I wun be spending time with Kal.
He noes i need to study, and I've x-plained the situation.
Hopefully, i will back on track b4 Exams.
Till then,goodnite world.
Slp tite Sweetest dreams.
I am not comin tml for the grp study.
I need to cool off.to regain focus.
Dun worry, I wun be spending time with Kal.
He noes i need to study, and I've x-plained the situation.
Hopefully, i will back on track b4 Exams.
Till then,goodnite world.
Slp tite Sweetest dreams.
ClazZiQuai CT, 12:14:00 AM
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24.1.09
I have made sumone very impt in my life cry tonite.
i din noe she was going thru alot of pain.
i did realise smt was terribly wrong.but i din noe it was dat bad.
i'm a terrible daughter.a terrible person.
i dun deserve to have sumone dat strong in all this suffering that my family is going thru.
i MADE her cry. WHAT KIND OF DAUGHTER AM I?
to noe her siblings are not speaking to one another.Misunderstanding and all.
i wasn't open enuff to her but she noes all about the skeletons hiding in my closet.
i've made things worse.and me being in the kind of relationship dat i am in with Kal, makes things even more complicated.
OH GOD.
Y did i do wt i did.?? where had my common sense gotten to??
where did my brains and heart go to??
wat the hell was i thinking????????!!!!????
i can't stop crying even after i said sorry to her.
i feel so low now.so guilty for doing things i did.
i feel dat i was too happy leadin my own life not realising wt hd been happening b-hind the scenes.
no wonder she kept dropping me hints.
y oh y was i so blind??!!??
i'm keeping a vow now.
to bring my family forward.N for me to spend more time with them.
coz they have been patiently waitin for me to realise wat i have been doing.
patiently waiting for me to be a better person.
to this i wanna add.
I wanna say sorry to pple that i have hurt unintetionally.i beg for ur forgiveness.i beg forgiveness from Allah.I beg forgiveness from all those i stopped contacting.
I deserve to be punished in watever way.I need time to pull myself together.i need time alone.
I have to be a better person, for my family.
I need to be wiser in my tots and actions, think about my future first.
I need to be me again.
ALLAH tolonglah aku.
i din noe she was going thru alot of pain.
i did realise smt was terribly wrong.but i din noe it was dat bad.
i'm a terrible daughter.a terrible person.
i dun deserve to have sumone dat strong in all this suffering that my family is going thru.
i MADE her cry. WHAT KIND OF DAUGHTER AM I?
to noe her siblings are not speaking to one another.Misunderstanding and all.
i wasn't open enuff to her but she noes all about the skeletons hiding in my closet.
i've made things worse.and me being in the kind of relationship dat i am in with Kal, makes things even more complicated.
OH GOD.
Y did i do wt i did.?? where had my common sense gotten to??
where did my brains and heart go to??
wat the hell was i thinking????????!!!!????
i can't stop crying even after i said sorry to her.
i feel so low now.so guilty for doing things i did.
i feel dat i was too happy leadin my own life not realising wt hd been happening b-hind the scenes.
no wonder she kept dropping me hints.
y oh y was i so blind??!!??
i'm keeping a vow now.
to bring my family forward.N for me to spend more time with them.
coz they have been patiently waitin for me to realise wat i have been doing.
patiently waiting for me to be a better person.
to this i wanna add.
I wanna say sorry to pple that i have hurt unintetionally.i beg for ur forgiveness.i beg forgiveness from Allah.I beg forgiveness from all those i stopped contacting.
I deserve to be punished in watever way.I need time to pull myself together.i need time alone.
I have to be a better person, for my family.
I need to be wiser in my tots and actions, think about my future first.
I need to be me again.
ALLAH tolonglah aku.
ClazZiQuai CT, 8:34:00 PM
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23.1.09
Skipped school to meet Kal.
I did some self reflection st the same time.
revised a bit on my school wrk.
still writing notes.
haiz...
i seriously have not been myself.
there's just smt wrong.
but i can't put my finger on it.
i've been to sensitive to my surroundings.
thinking always whether i've offended anyone, made sumone angry?
no clue.
and its getting to me.
how i wish i had an answer to wat's happening now.
i hv to focus now.
exams are neAR.
and time is of the essence.
i need to revise, and study.
I did some self reflection st the same time.
revised a bit on my school wrk.
still writing notes.
haiz...
i seriously have not been myself.
there's just smt wrong.
but i can't put my finger on it.
i've been to sensitive to my surroundings.
thinking always whether i've offended anyone, made sumone angry?
no clue.
and its getting to me.
how i wish i had an answer to wat's happening now.
i hv to focus now.
exams are neAR.
and time is of the essence.
i need to revise, and study.
ClazZiQuai CT, 11:42:00 PM
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20.1.09
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The acne on my face is getting worse.
i noe. i sound vain.maybe i am vain.
wateva.
i just got back home from my grandma's hse.
she's fine.haha.
Kal kept saying sorrie.he said he was really sorrie.
well both parties are to blame.not only one.
hmm..
i'm getting sleepy sumhow.seriously.
tml class starts at 8.30 and ends at 3.15.
oh man.
the presentation.
grp and individual.
the horror.
damn.
haiya.Kal keeps calling.
he's keeping tabs on me.
God give me strength.
ClazZiQuai CT, 9:33:00 PM
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19.1.09
i have been up and about since 9.went out for breakfast with Kal.
then gallavanting around s'pore.
whilst brainstorming the project.
no ideas yet. thots are still churning.
i need to be thinking more.grrr.
I'm tired. wanna sleep.goodnite world.
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ClazZiQuai CT, 12:07:00 AM
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17.1.09
okay just got bck I m now in the living rm watchin television,toking on the phn with Kal n bloggin.
Multi tasking k!
okay.. just got of the phn.. haha...
watching pitch black...
VIN DIESEL!!
haha.
I din go for the sentosa vid wateva shit. irritated but at the same time feel very abit guilty.
BUT i have been bringin the cam bck and forth for three times.
screw it.
i dun care. i'll do the other parts of the vid.
tml morning, going out with Kal for breakfast.
haha. still dunno where to go.
okay my father's back and he's starting to order me around as per usual.
update more l8er. have to go fold the laundry.
two big gargantuan piles of clothes.
damn.
i noe. like housewife.=P
Multi tasking k!
okay.. just got of the phn.. haha...
watching pitch black...
VIN DIESEL!!
haha.
I din go for the sentosa vid wateva shit. irritated but at the same time feel very abit guilty.
BUT i have been bringin the cam bck and forth for three times.
screw it.
i dun care. i'll do the other parts of the vid.
tml morning, going out with Kal for breakfast.
haha. still dunno where to go.
okay my father's back and he's starting to order me around as per usual.
update more l8er. have to go fold the laundry.
two big gargantuan piles of clothes.
damn.
i noe. like housewife.=P
ClazZiQuai CT, 8:38:00 PM
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16.1.09
Kal just had to get on my nerves yet again.its irritating.
HE can go out and meet his frens but i can't. where's the fairness in dat?
He keeps telling me dat i keep getting angry and frust at him 24/7.
like wtf.
i wasn't angry at him when i answered his phone call after sch.
wasn't angry at him when he keeps calling me while i was on the way hme just now.
wasn't angry when i asked him where he was and he just replied dat he is now wif his fren at gombak, chilling.
and me getting angry?
WHERE GOT TIME?
ha.
had tuition just nw.
terrible horrible.
had to reteach the kid how to add and subtract all over again.
no initiative to actually go and revise or bloody practise.
oh well.
at least her younger sibling has potential to do better in maths.
both are cute though.haha
not going for the vid tml.no mood already.coz i was bringing the vid cam back and forth and the plans keeps getting cancelled.screw u inconsiderate pple.
babes, u n oe hu u are.
lets ditch.
haha.i noe. evil.
i'll see how circumstances go.
my parents and Kal is gonna be swearing in their sleep anytime soon.
Screw u Pple.
HE can go out and meet his frens but i can't. where's the fairness in dat?
He keeps telling me dat i keep getting angry and frust at him 24/7.
like wtf.
i wasn't angry at him when i answered his phone call after sch.
wasn't angry at him when he keeps calling me while i was on the way hme just now.
wasn't angry when i asked him where he was and he just replied dat he is now wif his fren at gombak, chilling.
and me getting angry?
WHERE GOT TIME?
ha.
had tuition just nw.
terrible horrible.
had to reteach the kid how to add and subtract all over again.
no initiative to actually go and revise or bloody practise.
oh well.
at least her younger sibling has potential to do better in maths.
both are cute though.haha
not going for the vid tml.no mood already.coz i was bringing the vid cam back and forth and the plans keeps getting cancelled.screw u inconsiderate pple.
babes, u n oe hu u are.
lets ditch.
haha.i noe. evil.
i'll see how circumstances go.
my parents and Kal is gonna be swearing in their sleep anytime soon.
Screw u Pple.
ClazZiQuai CT, 10:40:00 PM
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i din post anything yesterday.
i quarreled with Kal regarding things.
pple, korang tau, paham2 je eh.
i had to leave fyeeqa,atika and Aishah on the spot as we alighted at the jurong east interchange.wtf.
SO SORRY BABES!!URGH!!
i m pissed about is dat currently we are always planning to do the vid, so i'll take along the vid cam.
BUT..
evrytime, the plan cease to take place coz..
THERE WAS NO PROPER PLAN IN THE FIRST PLACE!!
i noe.its just a small thing. but this had happen almost 3 times i suppose..
we'll meet up this sat.go to cafe del mar.Kal was doubly pissed when he got to noe this.
why dun i get to do what i want? why do i always have to give in?
i stand up for my rights but u call it being rebellious.
i dun understand.
i quarreled with Kal regarding things.
pple, korang tau, paham2 je eh.
i had to leave fyeeqa,atika and Aishah on the spot as we alighted at the jurong east interchange.wtf.
SO SORRY BABES!!URGH!!
i m pissed about is dat currently we are always planning to do the vid, so i'll take along the vid cam.
BUT..
evrytime, the plan cease to take place coz..
THERE WAS NO PROPER PLAN IN THE FIRST PLACE!!
i noe.its just a small thing. but this had happen almost 3 times i suppose..
we'll meet up this sat.go to cafe del mar.Kal was doubly pissed when he got to noe this.
why dun i get to do what i want? why do i always have to give in?
i stand up for my rights but u call it being rebellious.
i dun understand.
ClazZiQuai CT, 6:44:00 AM
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12.1.09
Kal gave a surprise just now.He came over to my hse and gave me presents..haha..
a pair of earrings and a bangle.. its not much.. and both are black..
but i appreciate it loads... it was really a surprise coz i tot he was on the way hme as i was toking to him on the phn..
he just asked me to take a look outside my hse..and there he was, looking tired but happy to see me..hehe.. i should be grateful to have him rite?
i was thanking him profusely..
exams are near.. strangely, i am not feeling anything.. funnie... usually i worry like hell..oh well..
my individual presentation is getting nearer.. i'm worried..
well, i have not started a single thing.. and i 'm so scared..
tml is fyeeqa's and atika's presentatin... if i'm not wrong.. gd luck k dudettes...oh and afiq too..
i m going to go do my sis's werk now.. help her out with her h/w..maths.. oh the horror..
haha.. but its funn.. coz its algebra!! haha
okay.. cyty u sound geeky...
watever..
so there.
a pair of earrings and a bangle.. its not much.. and both are black..
but i appreciate it loads... it was really a surprise coz i tot he was on the way hme as i was toking to him on the phn..
he just asked me to take a look outside my hse..and there he was, looking tired but happy to see me..hehe.. i should be grateful to have him rite?
i was thanking him profusely..
exams are near.. strangely, i am not feeling anything.. funnie... usually i worry like hell..oh well..
my individual presentation is getting nearer.. i'm worried..
well, i have not started a single thing.. and i 'm so scared..
tml is fyeeqa's and atika's presentatin... if i'm not wrong.. gd luck k dudettes...oh and afiq too..
i m going to go do my sis's werk now.. help her out with her h/w..maths.. oh the horror..
haha.. but its funn.. coz its algebra!! haha
okay.. cyty u sound geeky...
watever..
so there.
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ClazZiQuai CT, 11:03:00 PM
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11.1.09
okay.here's the pic that i tried to upload yesterday.haha.frm L to R: agri, hui jin, danica.
ClazZiQuai CT, 2:23:00 AM
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9.1.09
currently sitting down doing nth.. haha..
thinking bout stuff.
bsides that,thinking bout my schedule tml: tuition @9.30am
and then its an outing with Kal. haha.
i am super duper bored like hell.wanna finish reading zodiac soon.
wanna start on the second book soon.shit3.
i wonder when is it due.
i've realised smt.
i keep 4getting things.
Dah jadi mcm mk nenek eh cyty..haha..
B4 i end there's a pic of my other three classmates.I wanted to take a nice shot but my cam has the ability to snap pics slowly, so it ended up looking candid. we had suma's lesson today.learning to be agressive pple. haha.lol.
oh shit i can't upload the pic.
ClazZiQuai CT, 10:48:00 PM
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8.1.09
Today, i followed Kal to the doc's.. yesterday when i met him.. he was sick.. i waited for him outside.. when he opened his bedroom window..his nose was bleeding.. hmm..he has been sick for the past 3 days.. with fever and stuff..
din think it was this serious.. haiz..
today he was suppose to go work.. but he wasn't well enuff..
so it was a visit to the doc,went to his werkplace to submit the Medical Cert. Goodness..
it took Such a long time, i missed skool..
Hope he is feeling better now. =)
Wanna apologise and thank to afiqah,atika and aisyah for asking them to sign for me when i couldnt come for lesson.. sorie N Thankyou bnyk2 eh korang!! Love u pple!!
Learnt that tadi they 4got to sign the attendance.. onli rmbred it when they were tapping the ez link card... haha!.. SO FUNNY!!
anyway.I am almost done with skool assignments for this term.i m left with Naidu's inividual presentation,NVC vid and Jailani's assignment.I noe its rude to call the lecturer's by their names.oh well.
din think it was this serious.. haiz..
today he was suppose to go work.. but he wasn't well enuff..
so it was a visit to the doc,went to his werkplace to submit the Medical Cert. Goodness..
it took Such a long time, i missed skool..
Hope he is feeling better now. =)
Wanna apologise and thank to afiqah,atika and aisyah for asking them to sign for me when i couldnt come for lesson.. sorie N Thankyou bnyk2 eh korang!! Love u pple!!
Learnt that tadi they 4got to sign the attendance.. onli rmbred it when they were tapping the ez link card... haha!.. SO FUNNY!!
anyway.I am almost done with skool assignments for this term.i m left with Naidu's inividual presentation,NVC vid and Jailani's assignment.I noe its rude to call the lecturer's by their names.oh well.
ClazZiQuai CT, 6:18:00 PM
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7.1.09
i m in no mood to blog.
i m bored to the core.i have nothin to do.
amermer replied my msg.he said he missed me.I replied asking him whether he reallie did miss me.haha.
okay, i will update more. lazy now.
i m bored to the core.i have nothin to do.
amermer replied my msg.he said he missed me.I replied asking him whether he reallie did miss me.haha.
okay, i will update more. lazy now.
ClazZiQuai CT, 11:07:00 PM
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Naidu's lesseon was a blast!! woohoo...
It was a miracle dat we actually pulled thru and made the skit entertaining.. but yes... like i said... i blieved all in all my grpmates can make magic..
n it did happen.. thank you for all u guys' hard work aites!
It was a miracle dat we actually pulled thru and made the skit entertaining.. but yes... like i said... i blieved all in all my grpmates can make magic..
n it did happen.. thank you for all u guys' hard work aites!
ClazZiQuai CT, 2:30:00 AM
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6.1.09
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I am currently stuck.I hv a brain jam.Aisyah.. i m trying my best.Thank you for the brainstorm.It helped us a lot.AND i hope it start the ball rolling with the rest.I am pissed off with myself for being so ignorant of the assignment dates.Push dat aside for now.. i need ideas or at least smting to think of for this SBS assignment.oh teacher u torture us with the request for this to be posted on BlackBoard. I am having an anxiety attack.
Labels: u stood me up.hv fun with life.i can't figure u out anymore.
ClazZiQuai CT, 2:29:00 AM
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5.1.09
These are the pics taken in skool.. haha.. courtesy of aisyah... thankie u babe! My frens are good looking kan2? hehe...
AIYAH!!...
i am freakin stressed out rite now... coz there are unfinished assignments... and one of them is due on wed, 7th jan..hehe..
i am freaking stressed!!
okay maybe not stressed but just plain freaking out.. i've been trying to break down the question.. but it seems luck is not siding me.. its like i m reading russian or smt.. haha.. no clue on how to go abt doing the question..
okay.. mUst try...!! i'll update more on my progress.. soon if there is time yeah..
see you dudes and dudettes.
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ClazZiQuai CT, 4:40:00 PM
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4.1.09
today... i might do something craziee.. i dunno wat but i wanna.
I am late.. haven bathe.. need to go fyeeqaa's hse to do skit..
haha... atika will be waiting fer me at the marsiling mrt station.. kwang3..
see ya dudes and dudettes.. update more l8er.. oh btw..
dats my adek in the above pic..haha..
I am late.. haven bathe.. need to go fyeeqaa's hse to do skit..
haha... atika will be waiting fer me at the marsiling mrt station.. kwang3..
see ya dudes and dudettes.. update more l8er.. oh btw..
dats my adek in the above pic..haha..
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ClazZiQuai CT, 1:11:00 PM
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HieE!! haha.. just woke up from stoning.i noe.. i sound crazy..haa the wonders of medicine..and its drowsy side effects..lol.. i m wide awake..although still a tad unwell but feeling a lot2 betta..yeay!
i miss my frens.. haha.. anyways.. to all my well wishers: A BIG THANK YOU!!! SAYANG KORANG MUCH2!!XOXOXOXO..hehe..
okay..stress is abundant in my life.. but wtf.. life goes on.. perchance life may be difficult.. but come what may..chey3.. dh feeling2 eh cyty.. siao..
I am officially gonna revamp myself..well...soon.. slowly but surely..
I have no idea to what is going to happen in my love life.Kal is surely changing for the better.He promises me bout stuff in the future, us being together. Its too early to say anything.I m trying nt to make promises that i dun dare keep.
Amermer.. i dun wanna say much.he said he cared but now he is gone. and i hope its for the best. i do miss him LOTS though cos he was the one hu pulled me thru the sorrows and made me feel i m worth a human being.he reminded me not to think so lowly of myself, even though i still do.URgh!
y do i miss you?!!
I've done my best to behave.I realise i have lots of roles to play in my life: Daughter,Grand daughter,Friend,girlfriend,niece,sister,student,citizen etc2.
we all have roles to play in our lives.
hmmz... one day i might be able to get a hang of handling stress..hehe...
dudes and dudettes reading this.boo.haha.okay i m officially mentally insane.so there.
i miss my frens.. haha.. anyways.. to all my well wishers: A BIG THANK YOU!!! SAYANG KORANG MUCH2!!XOXOXOXO..hehe..
okay..stress is abundant in my life.. but wtf.. life goes on.. perchance life may be difficult.. but come what may..chey3.. dh feeling2 eh cyty.. siao..
I am officially gonna revamp myself..well...soon.. slowly but surely..
I have no idea to what is going to happen in my love life.Kal is surely changing for the better.He promises me bout stuff in the future, us being together. Its too early to say anything.I m trying nt to make promises that i dun dare keep.
Amermer.. i dun wanna say much.he said he cared but now he is gone. and i hope its for the best. i do miss him LOTS though cos he was the one hu pulled me thru the sorrows and made me feel i m worth a human being.he reminded me not to think so lowly of myself, even though i still do.URgh!
y do i miss you?!!
I've done my best to behave.I realise i have lots of roles to play in my life: Daughter,Grand daughter,Friend,girlfriend,niece,sister,student,citizen etc2.
we all have roles to play in our lives.
hmmz... one day i might be able to get a hang of handling stress..hehe...
dudes and dudettes reading this.boo.haha.okay i m officially mentally insane.so there.
ClazZiQuai CT, 12:34:00 AM
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2.1.09
I've not been feeling well.I am exhausted.very.I've been running around, and hving late nites.I know i have a low body immunity level but i am still doing this.i hate myself.I have been falling sick often,and now i am feeling dizzy and giddy.haiya.doctor says if i keep this up, i might be hospitalised, due to exhaustion.but why can't i be like my frens and have good body immunity? i wish i had.coz its makin me cancel meetings and stuff.bullshit.
The fact that im having emotional stress as well doesnt help.why do things in the world has to be complicated, esp the issues of the heart?
I wun be able to take this kind of stress anymore.I hate being emo.It sucks.I hate giving in to my feelings. I hate evrything bout me.I hate being in this state that i am, its making me hate life.This is not me.I DUN HATE.I need time out.I need a break.I have so many regrets in my life.I need to be me.This is not me.I am not being myself.Hate being an emo shit.
The fact that im having emotional stress as well doesnt help.why do things in the world has to be complicated, esp the issues of the heart?
I wun be able to take this kind of stress anymore.I hate being emo.It sucks.I hate giving in to my feelings. I hate evrything bout me.I hate being in this state that i am, its making me hate life.This is not me.I DUN HATE.I need time out.I need a break.I have so many regrets in my life.I need to be me.This is not me.I am not being myself.Hate being an emo shit.
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ClazZiQuai CT, 10:02:00 PM
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1.1.09
ITS 2009!!!YEAY.
i noe.. its suppose to be fun.. i'm scared.. of wat the future might hold.. my probs are still there.. Kal is making up to me..4 things he's done in the past.. we had a very long talk at the void deck during the "countdown".. well we were there for like hours till 2-3 am in the morn.. informed ayah b4 hand so there was nth for my parents to worrie abt.. i dunn whether i could still forgive him.. i should.. nt coz i have been with him for the almost the past 4 yrs.. its not how long but how fast, as atika said.. hmm..
Kal is nt strong to move on... and i'm tired of trying to push him away coz i love him !
its been a hectic 2008 and i hope 2009 will bring me something lighter to digest.. or is it going to get heavier? oh crap.
there is no end to this, i can feel it..
i m trying to be strong but its breaking me slowly.
i want to lead a happy life, but it seems dat i have been made to feel regret for choosing the path that i took 4 yrs ago.
digest it pple.so there.
i noe.. its suppose to be fun.. i'm scared.. of wat the future might hold.. my probs are still there.. Kal is making up to me..4 things he's done in the past.. we had a very long talk at the void deck during the "countdown".. well we were there for like hours till 2-3 am in the morn.. informed ayah b4 hand so there was nth for my parents to worrie abt.. i dunn whether i could still forgive him.. i should.. nt coz i have been with him for the almost the past 4 yrs.. its not how long but how fast, as atika said.. hmm..
Kal is nt strong to move on... and i'm tired of trying to push him away coz i love him !
its been a hectic 2008 and i hope 2009 will bring me something lighter to digest.. or is it going to get heavier? oh crap.
there is no end to this, i can feel it..
i m trying to be strong but its breaking me slowly.
i want to lead a happy life, but it seems dat i have been made to feel regret for choosing the path that i took 4 yrs ago.
digest it pple.so there.
Labels: where'd u go? i miss u so.
ClazZiQuai CT, 10:29:00 PM
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