30.11.09
its safe to say that I have a job.
On probation for 3 mnths, job probation, not the other one.
nyahaha.
I hope things will see light soon.
I wanna read the third instalment of the Twilight saga.
PUH-LEASE!!!!!!!!!!
JACOB IS SOOOOOO..
hahah..
namind.
besides all that, my life is none other than work.
go to work, go off, meet HIM and then back home.
I am thnkful.
yeay.
Contemplating whether to go tdo now anot.
I feel tired but at the same time have to find activities for the kids to do.
Anagrams sounds nice.
Toodles mortals.
ClazZiQuai CT, 10:16:00 PM
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21.11.09
Kal : laS
When you've tried your hardest to do everything that you can do to make your loved ones happy,
it doesn't necessarily mean that everyone is accepting the decision that you made.
I may have found something that is going to make a 360 degrees in my life right now.
but I may also be losing something else in return.
"Meaningless were the promises that you gave to me", you said.
Ironic isn't it?
You were procrastinating.
I never had a chance to explain but you had to turn that deaf ear on me.
There were never excuses but truths that I bore.
Patience was what I learnt ever since I was with you.
But for how much longer?
Dealing with you and the problems was like being swept away in a tsunami that did not even know mercy.
My chances of survival were minimal and I barely survived.
When I almost died, you dove in to save me.
But now, you left me to sink and struggle to come up for air.
I never once expected anything more from you.
Just a simple understanding.
It was for a better future for the both of us.
You never seemed to want to open up and see.
To you, I am only thinking of myself.
To me, it was vice versa.
You want to us to be together.
but you want everything to go your way, everything to be by your rules.
What about me? What about what I need to fulfill?
What about my responsibilities?
WHAT ABOUT THE FUTURE?
When we dreamt of all those things together, did you ever included me and my feelings in?
What kind of picture were you wanting to paint?
Maybe the word sacrifice was once in your dictionary,
but you only understood part of its meaning.
It's difficult enough, to look at the world through your eyes, to feel what you had felt.
I don't know how else to be.
ClazZiQuai CT, 1:44:00 PM
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14.11.09
My head ngah makin biol, makin stress.
Neverending housechores.
neverending parent bullying.(seriously, esp my father)
And this PERSON, yang body here but the soul somewhere else.
PLS TUHAN, GRANT MY DOA FOR A JOB!!!
duduk umah stress, gi skola pun stress.
keje tutor pun stress.
Ader BF pun stress.
ngan perangai satu2 mintak kene rembat.
Really.
I feel like smacking all those I am frustrated with.
I got to noe, how much it costs for the laptop repair.
A WHOPPING $270!!!
kimek, maner nak dpt duit seh?!
its already repaired and currently paid by my uncle.
how to pay him?
AKU NAK KEJE!!
entah2 nanti gi keje pun stress.
aiyah as long as I get my pay and do my job superbly,
I am happie.
Just dun get too involve in any office politics.
seriously.
Politics are bad.
Maybe I am getting all irritated for nth
or I am just over reacting.
or I am just plain unable to handle pple with attitude problem.
ClazZiQuai CT, 9:48:00 PM
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11.11.09
.nth to update.
ClazZiQuai CT, 1:39:00 PM
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