23.4.10
Critical Condition
Blow after blow I had to endure.
It feels like I am the only one suffering.
Seriously, everyone seem contented with their lives.
But I have problems to deal with.
Working hard trying to stabilise myself.
What with the immense stress at work,
pressure from their parents and expectations of bosses.
I had never seen myself as religious and pious person before.
I have trouble keeping up with my decreasing understanding of faith.
I am so naive, aren't I?
I am thinking too worldly, until the fact that I have a higher power to turn to,
I forget and neglect.
And so vice versa shall He do.
I have no one to blame but myself.
I have instances where I tried to step on this straight path,
but Every, Single, Time,
I sway, topple and then fall,
even deeper than before.
I am not strong now, and I know I never will be.
I tried so hard, but I will not give up.
I need more time than others do.
Oh Allah, please don't give up on me.
ClazZiQuai CT, 9:05:00 PM
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