24.4.09
i realise i have not been leading a happie life for the past 4 yrs.
seriously.
i have been seeing things going haywire and
probs go out of proportion before.
evrything is not going as i planned.
i have been under stress, depression for as long as i can rmb.
senang ckp, hidup aku seperti ikan hidup di darat.
i am constantly struggling to fight and live life the way i planned it to be.
but somewhere or somehow, an obstacle always appears.
and sometimes i fall so deep, its like i dun feel like life is worth living.
i planned to be in Uni now.
but things changed.
having taking the trouble to come up with lies to deceive my parents,my sins are so sinful.
my only fren that was comforting me was my pillow and the tears that come evrynite, sending me to slumberland.
pent up frustration and sadness eats me up frm the inside evrytime we quarrel.
how does it make u feel if u sacrifice all ur time and effort evry single day to make sure that he gets wat he wants and all u get are abuses and getting called jinxed?
blamed for evry single thing that goes wrong.
not even a thank you for evrything that went right.
my esteem went so low, i feel so small.
so degraded.
my heart broken to pieces so small, its beyond repair.
i dunno how else to let out the feelings kept for so long.
i feel better now.
seriously.
i have been seeing things going haywire and
probs go out of proportion before.
evrything is not going as i planned.
i have been under stress, depression for as long as i can rmb.
senang ckp, hidup aku seperti ikan hidup di darat.
i am constantly struggling to fight and live life the way i planned it to be.
but somewhere or somehow, an obstacle always appears.
and sometimes i fall so deep, its like i dun feel like life is worth living.
i planned to be in Uni now.
but things changed.
having taking the trouble to come up with lies to deceive my parents,my sins are so sinful.
my only fren that was comforting me was my pillow and the tears that come evrynite, sending me to slumberland.
pent up frustration and sadness eats me up frm the inside evrytime we quarrel.
how does it make u feel if u sacrifice all ur time and effort evry single day to make sure that he gets wat he wants and all u get are abuses and getting called jinxed?
blamed for evry single thing that goes wrong.
not even a thank you for evrything that went right.
my esteem went so low, i feel so small.
so degraded.
my heart broken to pieces so small, its beyond repair.
i dunno how else to let out the feelings kept for so long.
i feel better now.
ClazZiQuai CT, 7:14:00 AM
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