9.12.08
Its morning.duh.erm.re-reading my previous post.esp the most recent one.i dunno whether i should be damn truthful regarding my situation.all i noe is dat my plans and dreams with him are falling apart.nd i wanted to leave,but kal wouldnt let me go.and i have evry right to.. but am i being selfish? i question myself evryday.to leave him is being selfish rite? but wat if u had sacrificed so much for sumone u loved a lot walaupun u were treated like shit for the past 4 yrs and u still stayed on..?and now u have a newfound strength to get up on ur own two feet and not be weak,coz u want to get away b4 ur patience runs really thin coz of waiting for him to chnge after all those years, nd u cant..?coz he doesnt want to let u go..now dat he realises dat u cnt alwys be there 4 you, he promises to chnge...but i m too tired already..of crying,worrying,thinking and all dt stuff... yes i cn be an extremist..if i am kind and good i'll be kind and good to the max but if i'm bad, u cn say gdbye and xpect to see my other side i rarely show n u wouldnt want to do that .. u said its nt gd for me.. tapi u touched my last nerve... yes I HAVE BEEN TOO PATIENT..u took me for granted kal... u treated me like ur toy, u want u cari, u tknk u buang gitu..i dunno wat else to do...as abidah said, its either i leave now or just accept it since u promised to chnge...i m seriously confused..
ClazZiQuai CT, 6:36:00 AM
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